Sometimes I feel like I’m in love with a ghost or with a thought. Not too sure which one is worse. Day after day I’m waiting for something different. Special is a big word in this context. I’m not going to use it just yet. But yes, I’m waiting for something. I promise, I’m trying my best to hint what I want, what I need, but I get tired as well.

brave enough to write all down, I feel like I will become too personal and it is something, that perhaps I should avoid in this moment in time. Sometimes the house becomes quiet. You can hear people typing around. You can hear the wind, you can hear the sound of the city that invades our private space when the windows are open. You can hear the empty space that is getting lost in the shade of the intense night, that soon enough is going to cover us, again. Read the rest of this entry »

I never really understood the concept of an ‘online diary’. Not at all. I mean, I’ve always liked the idea of a real diary, in which you can draw, you can write using your own handwriting. It’s something better about it. Of course, we evolved, we started to create blogs. Some of them full of venom and sarcasm, some of them real books to be published, some of them really depressed or some of them that smell like spring and happiness. Read the rest of this entry »

Where is the fairy tale? I never believed when my parents were saying: “enjoy your childhood while you can, cuz later, you will face the problems and you will want to be a child again, without worries”. Why did I not listen? Nooo, I want to grow up faster, to be an adult, to do whatever I want. Really??? Why the hell did I fight for such a silly thing?! To be a big girl in a big world. Here I am. A big girl in a different country, doing a degree that I don’t really like and with no job. Yeppy, life’s good. Read the rest of this entry »

We’re running around in circles. We’re sad, unhappy, depressed and we do not seek to break this horrible circle of vices. I was in that position and probably to a certain extend i’m still one of them people, being blue most of the bloody time. I will be a hypocrite to omit such a true fact. But today is different. I woke up like my week started today. Like my new live is about to begin. No massive changes guys, but don’t get excited for no reason. It’s not that important. Read the rest of this entry »

It comes to a moment in time, when you’re bored(as fuck). You realize everything is a mess. You made it happen, so obviously, no one to blame but you. And you panic. Just like me. What to do next? How the fuck should I fix everything? You stay there in your corner and think. And smoke. And drink a beer…and smoke again, and think. Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Impossible to find the fricking solution that might make your life a bit better. Well, my dear friends and readers, I’m in shit. Beautiful, smelly crap, and to be honest I’ve got no idea whatsoever what to do. I’m stuck. Literally as well. Read the rest of this entry »

Smoking a cigarette. The great taste of menthol tickles my throat in a nice way. I’m slowly opening the curtains and starting to look away, far, far away. Nothing interesting. A big world, full of people just like me, in search of sunrise*. Smart people, stupid people, all the same. wondering around like a little army, fighting for daily shits that are meant to keep us busy, away from the real dream. Read the rest of this entry »

Fa o pauza. Acum! Da, tu! Fa o pauza! Inveleste-te cu un gand frumos. Povesteste-mi, te rog. Ce vezi? Ce simti? Nu e asa ca ti-ar placea sa opresti timpul in loc si sa te simti la fel mereu? Sa ai o supradoza de vise. Sa simti cum prin vene nu circula sange, ci fericire, entuziasm, pofta de viata. Read the rest of this entry »

Not a lazy morning. Although I went to bed around 2ish in the end, I still managed to wake up at 9. A bit of tea, cooking my breakfast, a bit of chat and a bit of twittering. Checking the news and smoking to start my day for real.

All right my friends. For more than a couple of years, I’ve been spoiling ‘the coffee’ and ‘the milk’ regarding to many topics…politics, football, university, relations, friends, alcohol and so on…but I didn’t tell you what I really think about Britain and British people. Read the rest of this entry »

Today we might wanna discuss a bit about open relationships. I had a bloke in my team today moaning quite a lot cuz he’s in an open relationship. So far so good, but the thing is…she’s getting all the dick, he doesn’t get too much of anything.

Question: why are you with the lass? A: Because I love her. That was the answer. Nothing else. I’ve heard an interesting theory as well, that people get bored and they cheat no matter what so you might as well do it while your partner knows about it. Read the rest of this entry »